So so SO crazy to even consider the fact that I am now nineteen, I have to start considering what I want to do with the rest of my life. I already have contemplated moving to Aylmer with my girlfriend... that in itself is such a huge (and very scary) step that I don't know how I feel about. I'm both excited and nervous, but if it's what needs to be done, so be it. I seem to look at "growing up" as more of a challenge, I want to tackle it, but I'm also scared to leave my comfort zone. Home is safe, home is where I've been for as long as I can possibly remember, but I'm an adult, I have to make adult choices and do adult things to make a life for myself... one that I can honestly look back at and be proud of what I have accomplished.

I truly do feel that moving out (as much as I am scared) is the best thing for me. If I happen to get the job up in Aylmer.. I'm going to go for it, no matter how strong my relationship with my dad is. He is my best friend, and it will crush us both, but I know deep down, even he knows what is best for me.

Anyways I'm off to Tumblr, stay golden ponyboy

- Mike