And away I go! It's almost unreal, I have to pinch myself. is this a dream? is this really happening?
The bus just left the station, this time I am on it. Detroit bound currently, then layover.
And by tomorrow morning I will be in Cleveland Ohio. I cant wait.
This has all been building up to this point and it's finally arrived.
Soon enough I will be able to say I've traveled the farthest I've ever been from home, out of the province,
out of the country. And while I have those anxious knots in my stomach, i'm mostly excited.
This is a huge step for me, the fact that I'm on this bus by myself even more so.
This time last near i couldn't imagine doing something this crazy, but look at me now!
I'm also really hungry but i didn't make it early enough to eat something before boarding the bus,
so i suppose i'll just have to wait until we get to Detroit?
Am I crazy? this has surely got to be the craziest thing I've ever done in my entire life.
I'm still kinda trying to process this, and how it all came to be.
The beginning of December i received my passport in the mail and it was all history from that point forward.
I'm sitting here typing this out on my laptop, wrestling the keys with the shakiness of this bus, looking out
the windows to the snow covered farmers fields, and the pine trees - my personal favourite.
I'm really just basking in all of this, soaking every minute i can into my memory. This is an experience I'll never
forget, i refuse.
Anyways I'm going to put a movie, a game, or something on to entertain me for the next 8 or so hours.

-Michael.

So most of you whom have stuck around know of my past. The hardships and happiness, the good, the bad, the ugly.. all of it. So you know the utter heartbreak Ive gone through in the past little while. But you may also know that I've found what I truly believe is real love and happiness. It's unfortunate it took having everything ripped from under me to realize that I deserved better, and sometimes things come into play at exactly the right time. He came into my life at the right time.

Next weekend Ill be embarking off on my newest adventure... this one taking me the absolute furthest I've ever been from home. But it's going to be so rewarding and so worth it, and all the months of planning and talking, video chats, cute texts will have finally paid off. I couldn't be more thrilled. He makes me so happy and just knowing we finally get to be with eachother has me over the moon excited.

In other news I've been turning over a new leaf, starting a new chapter of my life if you will. I gave up drinking, I'm at the healthiest my bodies ever been in a really long time.. and my anxieties have been at an all time low. I feel more confident, alive, invigorated even. Its like I'm finally starting to see the bigger picture that I was intended to see - the picture ive been portraying in my head for years but could never seem to quite grasp and yet here we are now. I'm at such a solid, sound place mentally and physically. I owe it all to my friends and family for not not giving up on me, but ultimately, i owe it to myself.. i could have easily continued being my own worst enemy and sabotage any chance at inner peace and outer happiness, but instead I fought tooth and nail to be at this particular place in time. Negativity can sometimes creep its way in, that's life but I'm not inviting it in... which is the big difference between me now, and say me a few months ago.

And so with that being said, I want to encourage everyone to embark on those adventures... even if they seem scary at first, you will never truly know until you do. I am mostly packed up and ready to leave. And while I know I'll only be in Ohio for a weekend I know one day i'll be there much longer, and everything I've ever wanted won't seem like a pipedream, but it will become a reality.

-Michael