It's been really easy to get distracted from updating my blog lately. Essentially, I've been living my life. I have been working on getting healthy again, that takes up my time. I've been working on finding a job, that takes time. I've been enjoying life with my fiancee, again that is a large factor in my life. And I've been having fun.

For the longest time that seemed all well and good. But this last month has been.. I dunno... trying? On my patience. I have been depressed beyond belief lately and have no clue why or how this came about. It's not that I am unhappy, I am. It's literally the feeling like I am miserable even though I'm not. I don't want to do anything. I just sit in my room half the time ready to break down. Perhaps it's the fact that i didn't finish second year of college and my grandparents are guilt tripping me. Or perhaps that I graduated first year, but have nothing to show for it? Whatever the problem is, it seems to be weighing heavily on myself. I've been arguing with everyone lately. I'm moody, caged in and bitter. I might actually go see someone about this. It's actually starting to scare me.