Hey guys I'm back! (Looking probably a lot more scruffy then when I had left) I needed to break from everything. Exhaustion mostly. I needed a mental break.. it was deserved and now I feel completely refreshed.

I've been getting back into shape.. although my trip to Mandarin today with the grandparents might bump me up a few pounds lol.

My life is slowly turning around it seems. It's not going exactly how I want it, then again who's life does? BUT at least things are taking a turn for the better *knocks wood*.

It's really crazy to think that I started this blog when I was in grade ten. I am now a year off from college.. two years off from high school! Where does the time go.

Even still looking back at my older posts you can tell I've grown up. Mentally, physically, it's actually quite remarkable. I suggest you guys reading to look back at some of my earliest posts.. then look at this one; have I not come a long way since then?

My dad's in a really happy place, needless to say this has put a lot of my depression and anxiety at ease. My mind is quite thankful I'm sure.

It is also really crazy to think that Destiney and I will having been together for two years February 3rd. Yet again I feel like I'm forty years old. My twin sisters started high school in September and here I am wondering why everything around me is going so fast but I can't even catch a break. I need a job, I need success, I need something to keep me busy so I don't break down constantly feeling like I've let everyone down. I can't help it, my mind jumps all over the place all the time. Literally feels like to opposing sides fighting arm against arm over the same thing... but failing to agree.  I just want to prove to everyone that I can be the person they all know (including myself) I can be. It's disheartening. I've tried my best through my entire life and look where I am now.

Anyways I just hopped outta the shower so as you can tell I had a lot to think about... hope you didn't mind my venting?