So. My dog died.

Sorry to start the post on such a sour note but thats the realm I'm existing in right now. I honestly lost a best friend and I am getting choked up trying to even piece together the reality of this while Im typing this out. I dont want to accept it, i refuse to accept this. My heart and mind are so so so heav right now. my eyes are dry from the countless hours of prolonged crying. Im broken through and through. Im trying so hard to find ways to cope but distractions are seldom and they dont last very long.

We all went out of Saturday night to the Grinning Gator Bar downtown. A handful of my coworkers joined and we had a great time attending the Hausofsleaze show that my brother's drag family run. It was a great peace of mind and my brother and I seriously needed the therapy. it feels good when friends pull you through even the most difficult times and it warms my heart to know that I can count on some really great people. As my shifts increase in length and frequency I cant heklp but feel overwhelmed, underslept and overworked. I cant complain too too much because i know there are millions of people with difficult jobs but geez sometimes the stress is so much.

a good friend of mine once told me that life is crazy, its got weird destinations are the stops arent always clear-cut but even with the bumps and crashes we still manage to enjoy the ride. I think Im going to start applying that mantra to aspects of my every day life. It might just be what I need. That or memes :p

- Michael