Sometimes, it's cool to take a breather and walk away from something if it stresses you out. Other times its more tranquil to put your lamentations on paper, err i guess in this case via keyboard. Ive been having a sort of - off - past weeks weeks. I dont even really know how to describe how ive been feeling, mentally. But physically i am withering away.
I have no desire to eat during normal hours. if i do, its usually not healthy and I usually instantly regret it. I have a terrible back, my neck is stiff and doesnt crack, my joints ache and constantly snap and i have such a docile grumpy attitude lately that Ive been having a terrible time trying to break. Whats worse is that my depression and anxiety have seemed to sky-rocket. It was so bad that at one of my longer shifts my hands were uncontrollably shaking and i just began sobbing... and i had absolutely no idea why. I really wish i could get to the bottom of this slump because it's consuming me alive. Do you ever do that though? Sit back and try and actually think about what could be sooo bad in your life that you are going through such a random slump and you just come up short for answers? I really cant think of something to be bothering me at this current moment. I dont have anything heavily weighing on my mind so what the actual hell?

Anyways my Kraft Dinner is ready, so im gonna eat that and probably watch rupauls drag race, have a good one guys!