It's been awhile, yes I get it. School being my excuse like always, but you should note that i have one week left of classes So there's that.
I'm tired. Tired of constantly fighting to prove myself and it's so frustrating, I just wish that everything would fall right into place instead of having to work my hands to the bone in order to get to where I want to be. I'm over it. I've had to grow up since I've been - what? - 13 years of age.
It's not that i enjoy knowing that I've worked hard and earned what i've worked hard for, it's just that I'd rather take a break from all the stressful 'overthinking' that I've been doing and just the let chips 'fall as they may' so to speak.
anyways I have like three assignments on the go, so i should probably get on that... here marks the end of my social life for about a week and a half (exams).
So here I stand exactly how you left me With a broken heart There's a broken heart in me So where'd you go? Why didn't you take me?
Why does love always leave?
'Cause everyday I try and forget about you Everyday I try And everyday I'd die just to let you know That it's too late And I won't wait for you
Brighter, Brightest - Everyday
^currently my favourite band. I love them. I think i;m going to start doing videos on youtube again, it's been quite some time and it seems like that's a good idea, maybe some singing invloved this time, or underwear dances with crazy masks.... oh that's a story for another time.
I'm not very fond on this new blogger post editor, cause any time I try hitting enter, I get sent back to my previously typed paragraph.. as if getting up the energy to actually go on blogger wasnt already enough work haha.
I had my skills exam today, i'm pretty pleased with myself, i feel great, considering i have not been feeling good for the past three days and wanted to hurl the entire time I was there. But hey, I passed!
I'm so tired and want the weekend to just hurry up, cause well im going to my mom's, and then thanksgiving, however work is going to be a bitch and a half... I get off a half an hour early (yay -.- ) so I can catch the bus for nine, which doesnt really do me any good anyways, cause how am I supposed take the bus afterwards... especially when they stop running -.- LTC needs to sort their shit out, anyways i have a lab at 8 in the morning tomorrow, I best be resting my weary little head, you just sit back and soak up my adorable-ness in the above picture and try not to get a boner, Destiney, I'm talking to you.
Sounds so soulful don't you agree
I invented swag
Poppin bottles putting supermodels in the cab
Proof :I guess I got my swagger back
Truth: new watch alert, Hublot's
Or the big face Rollie I got two of those
Arm out the window through the city I maneuver slow
Cock back, snap back
See me cut through the holes
The Throne - Otis
Well, here we are. At the pivotal moment in my life where I have chosen to take a stand and put my big boy shoes on. Needless to say I have chosen to push negative aspects of my life out of it, frankly it is turning me into a stronger person. This summer has opened my eyes drastically and has allowed me to mature, and I didn't even think it was possible.
Obviously if you've been a follower of my blog (undoubtedly there's not many left) you will have noticed the swift decay of my blog initiative, however, i now feel as though I have things to blog about again. High school is all the same, that's why i never really had much to talk about, my life has officially started, and the nonsense is thrown out the door.
I have one last thing to do before I start college, than i will official be ready to grow up, it's been a long time coming, but I like this new me, I like him a lot.
I mean, why should I have to sit around and appease the needs of others? In the longrun, I'm not benefiting myself, and in the end, I should respect myself. So to the people who expect me to be what they want, I say goodbye. If I'm not the person you want me to be, than why am i bothering with you - really, it's nonsense. To those of you who see the real me and appreciate it, I thank you. Your love and respect has allowed me to understand who and where I need to be in my life. And I finally get it.
I'm not going to run around like a chicken with it's head cut off, I'm manning up, and it's about time I grabbed life by the balls, because I'm no longer going to settle.
I am Myself, I will always be myself, if that isn't good enough for you; sayonara.
On a brighter note, I am looking forward to college, I'm not scared and I want to experience everything it has to offer. Because frankly, my summer was depressing to say the least, no good really came out of it and I've been forced to mask emotions that i don't want to anymore, and I wont.
Oh, and I'm officially under 200 lbs again! I have not been this skinny since the start of grade ten, the highest I got was 240 lbs, and to finally weigh 195lbs, i feel like I have accomplished something. I worked so hard for it, its a little depressing still being shot down and still being called 'fat' or 'chubby' but really it doesn't bother me as much as it used to. Whats sad is I used to be too afraid to take my shirt off in front of some friends that I considered friends, horrible to think that people you thought cared about your feelings had no problems poking at your insecurities. But i have to understand, some people aren't ready for life changes, and some people want to grasp what little youth they have left. However, it's not me anymore.
Sure, I can enjoy parties and drinking, but that doesn't mean that I have to treat life like a joke, reality hit me hard - I need to grow up and stop taking things so seriously, life changes, friends change and people change. And I need to make a few changes in all three aspects. I know who my real friends are, and I love them. As far as I am concerned I will have a long lasting relationship with them, and i can only hope they feel the same way.
Anyways I'm tired, gonna go rest a bit,
thanks for reading :)
Everything you want so let me get up there I'm the baddest baby in the atmosphere Tell me what you want so we can do just what you like You make me feel that La la la la la You make me feel so La la la la la Cobra Starship ft Sabi - You make me feel (La La La)
OH OH OH BABY! Guess who's finally under 200lbs? MEE ME ME!!!!!
Okay, I understand that was a little too much excitement... but hey, understandable I think.
I haven't felt this great about myself since well... it's been quite a few years to say the least. But then I was a rail, at least now I have some good muscle definition, and am proud to show it off.
Summer has been going superbly well, although yesterday involved me accidentally getting elbowed in the nose and lip... needless to say I have a bruised cartilage and a fat lip... but these things happen when you are wrestling with your brother in the living room after your dad says to take it easy. So in a sense, I kind of feel like it was just desserts aha.
I have to do my Writ testing for Fanshawe soon, the last day is August 18th, so i gotta step it up, plus I have to do an online Health and Safety Course.. which I kind of feel like I've been over this with you guys before? Yes? No?
Anyways, my dad's firing up the grill, so I gotta go, talk to you all later. Mike
Cobra Starship ft Sabi - You make me feel (La La La)
Bitch you ain't no Barbie I see you work at Arby's Number 2, super-sized Hurry up I'm starving Gnarly, radical, on the block I'm magical See me at your college campus baggie full of Adderalls Call me if you need a fix, call me if you need a boost See them other chicken heads? They don't never leave the coop Kreayshawn - Gucci Gucci
^ Love that sonnnnggg! Anywho I am back again. See it's fairly recent :) I just finished watching Big Brother (it's kind of a muse of mine) missing all of my friends, sad to think I may not see a lot of them due to college and whatnot, but I digress.
Summer party planning is approaching, which means i gotta download a shit ton of music and start making my epic playlists! Having a house party at my mom's, really excited too. probably going to have a whackload of people there, just need to ensure that I invite the right people, you know?
So, it's 9 at night, I'm not getting smashed with people and I'm incredibly tired..... what the fuck is happening to me :o
I kid, i kid. But on a more serious note.... I have to apply for an online course at fanshawe that takes 18 hours, in which i have to learn about health and safety for my culinary class. Not that I'm nervous or anything, but this is the first step towards my post-secondary experience... and i'm sorta freaking out. This whole 'growing up' thing doesn't sit too well with me, but I understand that it needs to happen.
Anyways, I'm going to draw.. haven't done it in awhile, might post pictures... might not, see you later.
Lately I've been stuck imaginin' What I wanna do and what I really think, time to flow out
Be a little inappropriate Cause I know that everybody's thinkin' it when the lights out Britney spears - I wanna Go
So guess whatttt!? Summer 2011 has officially arrived, I've officially graudated and I'm off to college!!
it's crazy to think that my first blog post was back when i was in grade 10, and I'm already on my way to college. My blog has been very inactive since then, but hey, I'm starting to live my life and I think it's going in a very positive direction so far? At least I think it is.
My life has been so eventful it's hard to blog about them cause I can't really express them, and then video uploads take way too long.
I'm going to try though, otherwise the purpose of this blog becomes highly unconventional.
I'm going to start to blog about ym hangouts and adventures rather than just whats on my mind, it will be more like an interactive look into my life, and will probably be more intriguing than the same crap i always blog about.
SO, in that retrospect, I'm going to Port Stanley's Canfest tomorrow, with a whole bunch of good genuine friends for some awesome summertime fun to celebrate Canada and being proud to be a Canadian.
we're just going to have an awesome time, cause most of us are going off on our own to different colleges, so most of us wont see eachother for quite some time after summer. Which really sucks to think about :( BUT i'm going to stay positive because all of you are going to be at my wedding day, and all of you are going to be at my funeral, none of us are going to lose touch or I will hunt you all down and kill you individually aha :p
Anyways I'm tired and have to be up early tomorrow, blog ya later :)
Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend. Somewhere alone in the bitterness and I would've stayed up. With you all night, had I known, how to save a life. The Fray - How to save a life
First off, yeah the quote... I know it's old. But it's there because it's good. And yeah, that photo you are witnessing... I'm naked, deal with it. I actually tend to get this sense of gratitude, self-worth and empowerment when i am naked. I suddenly feel powerful and fearless. I've obviously censored it out for those of you who are afraid of a penis... but the picture exists uncensored somewhere :p
Anyways, I'm sorry I haven't blogged in quite a long-ass time, school has been kicking my ass royally. Not to mention, I discovered a large lump under my right armpit that hurts very badly. My dad took me to get it checked out and the doctor told me that I have an infection, which developed into a blood-clot.... yikes!
I got my anti-biotics now and I actually feel more sick than I did before taking them, but I guess it means they are doing their job since a common side effect is headaches and nausea, since I've been prescribed Apo-Cephalex and I have to take 4 daily, did I mention these suckers are huge horse-like pills. Although the taste isn't all chalky and powdery, so it's a lot easier to swallow.
It's probably recommended that I go to bed now, since it's 12:22 in the morning.... so I think i will do that, sorry, no video today :(
I wanna boom bang bang with your body girl, it's gonna be a bumpy ride. Mohombi - Bumpy Ride
No, seriously... if someone buys me Ed Hardy for my birthday..... lookout!
My party is tomorrow and my birthday is on Sunday, needless to say I am trying to get as hammed as possible, I'm thinking alcohol poisoning is the perfect way to enter the ripe old age of 18? :p
Anywho, I can't wait to see my gf tomorrow I love her more than anything.... more than rubber duckies, and that says something. She puts the biggest smile on my face whenever I talk to her and whatever she says always makes me happy. She's beautiful and doesn't even have to try too hard. I love her for who she is, and she should never change.
My mom has already told me what she's getting me for my birthday, I'm kind of stoked, because bronzer's not doing it soo much lately. She has decided to pay for my tanning minutes over march break.... holy fuck best present so far from her :)
I desperately need to go tanning, i saw myself in the mirror this morning and became witness to the fact that i look like a walking ghost. And before you get on my case about how tanning is bad for you blah blah blah, I'm only going for a short amount of time, and i'm not going everyday, get over it. What I do with my body is my decision. SPEAKING of altering my body, i'm gonna get a wrist tattoo for my stepmom that says "fly away to the heaven's above, on the wings of a soft white dove - rest in peace mom 2006" on it, i think it's beautiful, on a not-so-beautiful note, I'm planning on getting a prince albert, I've kinda wanted one for awhile now.. but never had the balls to do it.... awkward word choice. I've just decided that it is better to live life to the fullest rather than let life pass me by.
Anyways, thought I'd blog before i go to work in the morning :)
Well, my name is Michael. Not anything special, actually kind of bland. I like to blog and express my ongoing need to incoherently babble about uneventful moments of my life, it tends to take me to higher places.I prefer veggies to meat, but I'm not vegetarian. I have a vivid imagination that often leads me to places I shouldn't be at times.I like comic books and reading goofy stories and my favourite fruit is grapefruit. I enjoy photography, nudity and making stupid decisions that I will regret later.Reading this blog is essentially reading an extension of myself, so hopefully you enjoy it? I don't know, bye.
